Purpose

Hello friends! It has been quite a while since I have posted a blog, but I have been working on quite a few and finally got this one wrapped up to share with you guys! This will be my first post since publishing my blog, and I am so pumped to share with you guys what the Lord is teaching me and how He has been working in me during this season.

As most of you know I was living in Thailand at the beginning of 2020 and had to come home due to Covid. It is now June 2021 and Thailand is still closed to visitors - meaning I'm still in America. It's been a super weird year of figuring out my "purpose" and literally begging the Lord to tell me why I'm here and not where my heart is resting in Chiang Mai. Throughout the process of trying to figure that out, I have learned something huge. Our purpose is to bring people to Him and to live in a way honoring to Him.

That's it.

It's that simple.

Yes, of course, I think the Lord calls us each to something different in order to do that, but ultimately I think we all have that same purpose and it doesn't have to be this big secret we are missing out on. I think the realization of this gave me a sweet sense of peace I had not felt since returning home from Thailand.

I know in full confidence the Lord called me to work at Agape Home in Thailand, but I also think He had another story written out for me back home that I was completely unaware of. I noticed while I was overseas that my identity was getting caught up in the work I was doing and not in the work the Lord was doing through me; which led me to be unfocused on my ultimate purpose of fully living for Him and giving Him the glory for it all. Honestly, I kind of ignored this feeling and continued on with my work, until I was thrown on a plane and sent home in the middle of a pandemic...

Upon returning home, I genuinely struggled. I had a lot of anxiety to the point of not eating and was feeling the weight of the pandemic so heavy that I wasn't really looking for the Lord or my purpose at all. I was at a place of frustration and misunderstanding as to why the Lord would ask me to come home after He was the one who called me to be in Asia. In the midst of this, I started to feel Him showing me different reasons why I was home and that my purpose is the same no matter where I am living. He showed me that He can use me in any state, country, or continent if I am willing to let him do so.

So that was a lot of words, but ultimately what I'm trying to say is our purpose is clear. Whether He carries it out through you by being a teacher, a doctor, a barista, a mama, or a pilot; it is the same for us all.

"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations..." Matthew 28:19

"For if we live, we live for the Lord, or if we die, we die for the Lord; therefore whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s." Romans 14:8